Well, I made it. I wasn’t sure about today; not only because it’s Mother’s Day but I didn’t want to bring everyone down. I wanted it to be a happy day filled with good memories of Mom and past Mother’s Days.
The day ended up being good. We all made it to church and after to the grave site to place flowers. It was very emotional for everyone but I guess that’s all part of the grief journey. It is funny to think but I woke up Saturday morning thinking of something I wanted to ask Mom. I walked down the hallway and stopped short in my tracks and started laughing—Mom, you’re not here. I thought, wow I am losing it and I am getting old. I could just her Mom say, “Baby you’re in trouble. You are getting old.” She always said that when I’d lose or miss place something.
Oh, Mom I do wish you were here. We made your favorite dishes for dinner and Ray made his mother-in-law’s favorite cheesecake dessert. Mom used to love it so much. Every year Ray would ask her what she wanted for him to bake on Mother’s Day and she would give him a big smile, like you know what I want—cheesecake. She always bragged how her son-in-law made the best cheesecake in the world.
As we were sitting down to dinner Ray shared how much he missed Mom. They got along so well and Mom loved him very much. Anyway Mother’s Day came and went and I made it just fine. I’m glad that to my surprise it went well. Mom you are missed so much. Today on your special day and every day you will always be in our hearts. We will love you forever, “Happy Mother’s Day!” I love you Mom.
